The Adventure

I think God sends people into your lives for certain purpose and a lot of times it's hard to figure out what that reason is but you feel in your heart that they are supposed to be in your lives. I just reconnected with someone who I haven't talked to in probably a year or more and I'm glad he's back in my life. I'm not sure what God's purpose for us is but I know that you're supposed to be in my life right now. It's odd since I just said goodbye to someone who was in my life and hello to another put in my life. God is amazing; I cannot live, I can't breathe unless you do this with me, Lord. Life is the adventure and we have to jump off that cliff of indecision to begin. Love as though hate doesn't exist, love without limitations and love like God loves us. Experience everything and love always. So jump with me!

Black Words

You said stay
Do those words taste black
As you play them back?
Black with deceit
Black with lies
Now I'm stuck here as my heart cries
You said stay
But now I can't even play
The music that reminded me of you
Because it tempts the line you drew
On my heart to split into two
How do you expect to be forgiven
When it was my heart that was given
To you, letting all the barriers down
I have no regrets now
But I'll always have that memory
Of you saying communication was key
When it was over there was only a silent plea
You don't own me
So leave me be
You said stay
Well it didn't really matter anyway

Dear God it's me Margaret.

How do you begin to know how to let someone go who you don't want to? You seem SO perfect for me and yet your lifestyle is so much different from mine that I couldn't fathom that part of our life together. Why did you pick that? Is it really worth your life someday? I don't understand how I could cope with it. I know you're supposed to sacrifice some things for love but you can't sacrifice so much of yourself that you resent your life after you've made that sacrifice. I want to travel and you're content staying where you are for the rest of your days. I yearn for adventure with every fiber of my being and you are complacent with staying put. And yet I want to love you so badly, I want to be with you because you're so amazing and the sweetest guy I've ever met. How do I begin to let someone go who's so good for me and not at the same time? Dear God it's me Margaret.

I will let this go

Maybe if my heart stops beating it won't hurt this much. What a line, I think about this song a lot especially when I'm having problems with love. The song is called never let this go.
How can I miss you when I've never held your hand?
How can I miss you when I haven't touched your face?
How can I miss you when I've never heard the bass in your voice?
Shallow words pierce through my heart and burn my eyes as I see them sprawled in front of me. How can we go on like this pretending everything is okay? My age bothers you, if you really loved me it wouldn't. If I really loved you, the distance wouldn't be a problem. But as each day passes another problem arises and we are not even committed to each other. How can I miss someone I don't even know? The truth is I cannot. I cannot miss something that was never mine, that was never tangible. You aren't going to serve as my novelty anymore.
I will let this go.
I will let you go; the stranger that you are.
Goodbye.